a Taylored Approach
I can't totally take credit for the blog post title this week but the phrase is on a new Gorjana bracelet I've been donning lately, alongside my evil eye and arrangement of cables + middle initial. I'm newly obsessed with this stack, rarely take it off as it complements the crystals I've got going here on Chestnut St. Yes, you read it correctly. Crystals from this NYC shop I discovered and I'm totally into my 2018 vibe thanks to these metallic gals.
The inspo for this week is probably no surprise. It revolves around that pretty red shape and matters of (you guessed it), the heart. As I think about things in my life I've been able to conquer with ease, it's time to address the dreaded L word, where I admit I've stumbled along the way and that's OK. I'm here to say boldly, I'm bad at love. Don't cue that Top 40 song just yet, although it's catchy. Instead, hang out for a sec while I tell you why. You're not ready for real love until you have self love. Enter Carrie Bradshaw's quote on the biggest relationship you'll have is with yourself. And let me tell you, it's SO true. It's a big one and something that has taken me a bit to find.
To say I've been hard on myself is an understatement and those who know me well can attest to it. I failed to see the positive, failed to understand the power of my presence and was always quick to criticize any part of myself. I couldn't see what others saw in me both inside and out. I got in my own way. Always. Until now. Something the blog has taught me is to appreciate any photo op (no matter how awkward I may get) and instead of picking myself apart, finding a hair out of place or an angle that is not my best, I choose to see a girl who is happy, a girl who shines and more importantly, a girl who believes it. And that's the key, belief. Don't get me wrong, I still have my days like any girl but I've grown leaps and bounds in the last few years that I barely recognize the insecure blonde, tan babe in old photos. I've become a confident, independent and at very small moments, an undercover sensitive Sally (although I hate to admit that) who has taken the time to find herself.
So this Valentine's Day, I'm raising my glass to you, TC. A girl who never saw boundaries in the office and who slowly realized there aren't personal boundaries if you choose not to see them. She knows who she is, funny quirks and all and is not afraid to be herself. Whether it be Blanche covered in sequin in Palm Springs, realizing I'm an 85 year stuck in a 33 year old body watching Dateline or the girl who is ecstatic about finding a duo of gold birds. It took awhile but I'm here now. And silly things aside, I will always be loyal, always see the good in people and always give you cheeky words of advice.
And alas, since it is love day, I'll leave you with a few of my favorite quotes.
"Your company. The pleasure of your company. I want your input on video rentals. I stand there for hours, I can't pick anything out. I want someone to say goodnight to, a last call of the day. I don't have a last call of the day. Do you?" Buddy Amaral (Bounce)
"I love that you get cold when it's 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle above your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend the day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible." Harry Burns (When Harry Met Sally)